Daze

Have you ever caught yourself starring at your little one(s)? I did that today. Jaer was sitting up to the table eating his lunch and I caught myself just watching. His mind is in an entire other world. Even in the way he eats there is some story behind it. He will randomly start laughing at himself and all I can think is that I wish I could get a glimpse of what he was imagining. Today is one of those days when you want to just pause and watch the world. I am so grateful for our lives. Everything is so great and wonderful and I am so happy to be where I am. I want to gush for a minute about my gratefulness. To start of Jaer Bear! He is so perfect! He is smart, sweet, funny and just has every trait you could think of that is in a great person. I am so excited to see the boy and man he will turn into. He is so silly and loving and he really has a special sense of peoples feelings. If you sad or happy he really feeds off of your feelings. He is always making us laugh! He loves to be in the spotlight but only for a second and then he hides! I love it! When we start singing a song he says SHHH  Top! (Stop) and puts his hands up motioning for you to stop and then he gets a bashful grin and presents himself as if he were in a spotlight and starts to sing the song only a few words then gets bashful and starts giggling! He has a nervous giggle and I absolutely love it! He loves to help out and clean with me. He has a few chores that he gets to help out with. Like putting the water bottles away in the fridge. He even knows to slide the cold ones to the left and fill the warm ones in until it is all the way full. He also loves to wash the floor. It was an idea a read up on in a magazine you give your child a rag and squirt bottle with water and let them go to town on the kitchen floor. He will sit and scrub if he sees a spot! I love it! He also makes his bed with me and let me tell you if he goes into his room and the bed is not made he gets so upset! I love it! Jaerick is just the sweetest little spirit and he is everything that I could have ever imagined. I love you baby boy! Then there is Tim, Man that is one handful of a husband! Just kidding. Tim is the hardest worker I know. He always wants more for Jaer and I. He is always trying to surprise us with little things that he knows makes us happy. Last week he was gone the entire week and it was so hard for him. I told him we were fine and Jaer was not acting up or anything. Well turns out that made him feel worse! ha He loves to be needed and to make people smile. When he surprised us and came home earlier then he said he was going to I was so stoked. It was one of those times when you get the butterflies back that you had when you first dated. And Jaer was mad at him for the first hour. It was cute then he wanted nothing but to run around and wrestle with his daddy. He is the greatest Daddy to Jaerick. He loves to create, learn and play with Jaer all the time. When he is working on his stuff in the garage he takes jaer with him. Or if he is cooking dinner ( which he loves to do!) then he has Jaer in there helping out. He really is amazing. And last Baby Brother to come. What a blessing it is for me to even be able to sit here and say that! I am so overwhelmed by the mere fact that this is even possible to happen to us. That Jaer will get to have his little brother and we get another rambunctious baby boy. I am still almost stunned to think that our babies bio mom is willing to put aside her own selfish desires and give him a life more then she has the ability to do right now. To me it is amazing. I can't really think of a word grand enough to describe such an act of love. I am more then excited and really really ready for him to be here! We have 2 1/2 months left, his room is almost complete and he has more clothes then he'll ever need. I Sorry for the long post I just wanted to voice my gratitude for today!